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8 mesecev Azije. 6 drzav. V sirino, visino in globino. Kulture, okolja, delovanja, politike, druzbe, posameznika, narave in mest. Predvsem pa vase. In ob zivljenju prostovoljke v misijonih za sest mesecev v kamboska dekleta. Temu recem Ljubezen.

Mr Nobody in tretji Newtonov zakon

Each of these lives is the right one! Every path is the right path. Everything could have been anything else and it would have just as much meaning.

Ze kar nekaj casa trobim o reakcijah na nase odlocitve, akcije. Ko se odlocimo za nekaj, ta odlocitev sprozi val dogodkov, novih odlocitev. Nobena odlocitev ni dobra ali slaba, prava ali napacna, bolj prava ali bolj napacna. Reakcije (s cimer imam v mislih vse nadaljnje dogodke) so edinstvene, in tudi mala odlocitev lahko za sabo potegne niz novih in drugacnih dogodkov. 
Kako neverjetna moc je v magnetni sili zivljenja, ki ustvarja zaporedje dogodkov.

Vsec mi je ta ideja o zivljenju. In brez skrbi, zaradi tega nisem nic bolj obremenjena s sprejemanjem odlocitev. Da pomembne odlocitve (pre)dolgo meckam v svojih mozganih, je tako ali tako ze stara pesem.

Ce konkretiziram. Moja odlocitev za Azijo je za sabo potegnila niz dogodkov, ki se sedaj odvijajo. Doma, v pisarni na Cehu, v druzinah tistih, ki so mi blizu, med prijatelji. In prepricana sem, da bi pot, ki bi se odvila, ce bi ostala doma, bila precej drugacna, kot bo sedaj. In prav tako pravilna, lepa in moja. 

In moj pogled resnicno dobro upodobi film Mr Nobody, ki popelje gledalca po razlicnih tirnicah moznosti odvijanja zivljenja glede na razlicnost sprejetih odlocitev. Posledica kolapsa kronologije in popoln kolaps enosmernosti zgodbe je sporocilo filma, ki kot seme, ki raste vec kot en dan.

Zapis je zapis zame. Verjetno vecina ni gledala filma. Ali pa ga nikoli ne bo. Morda bo kdo poskusil in obupal. Tako da ja, tole je zame.

Zbir citatov, ki risejo zmago za ta film:

Nemo: I'm not afraid to die, I'm afraid I haven't lived enough. It should be written on every school chalkboard, 'Life is a playground or nothing.'

Nemo: As long as you don't choose, everything remains possible.

Jean: Nemo, do I matter to you? I'd just like to ask you one question. Did you do it on purpose? I found this on the bedside table. 
[reads note] There comes a time in life where everything seems narrow. Choices have been made. I can only continue on. I know myself like the back of my hand. I can predict my every reaction. My life has been cast in cement with airbags and seat belts  I've done everything to reach this point and now that I'm here, I'm fucking bored. The hardest thing is knowing whether I'm still alive.
Nemo: [looks at note] It is my handwriting. I don't remember.

The narrator of the story: A drop of rain falls on a piece of paper and smudges the phone number (belonging to a girl named Anna) written on it. The number gets erased and so does any trace of Anna. 

Anna: You're the first and last person I'll ever love.
Nemo: Ten days... That makes 14,400 minutes... I wish time would stop right now, that it would stay this way forever.
Anna: They say if you slow your breathing, time slows down. The Hindus say so.

Anna: Go slowly. I have to get used to it. I talked to you so much when you weren't there, it's strange for me to talk to you for real.

Nemo: [narratingProbably the worst thing about being on Mars is that nothing will happen there. Time will seem stale and empty.
Man: [looking out over MarsIt doesn't look like there is much to do. I hope I brought enough Sudoku.

Before he was unable to make a choice because he didn't know what would happen. Now that he knows what will happen, he is unable to make a choice.